it's time

I realized I'm of having to be always happy or at least pretending to be. All I wanted was for people around me to be happy. But when they start being asses and backstab you, what's the use right? I do not like being the kid anymore. No one takes the kid seriously... for everyone, he's the person who is fun. But who is the kid if that fun was lost? The kid is no one. The kid's identity lies in his fun factor. I'm tired of acting in real life. Time to grow up.