senior syndrome: starts now

Senior Syndrome. The two words I never thought would come, came. I don't like it.

Two more months. Tae. Tae. Tae. Foin, I'll think about it when it comes.

P.S. I'm not ready to talk about bluerep. The past few days have not been good experiences. I hanging by a thread and my patience is running out.

perfect days

Perfect days are fun. Today was a perfect day.

I had a long test which I think I got high in. I stayed in sec B with so much things to do. I went to Trinoma and was able to find the gift I would give. I went to rehearsals and had fun. I got the notes correctly. Everyone felt I deserved my role. No issues at all. No need for alcohol. This is the life.

I wish everyday was a perfect day. It's a good thing there are those people we call friends. They make perfect days much much better.

Saracasm really gets me through the day. I only believe in the last two sentences I wrote.

quitting and alcoholism

I have yet to make a final decision. Yesterday's reading was actually fun for me because I got to open my mouth. :-x

Anyway, pam and iggy told me not to quit since sayang. I kinda think so too... but then it is really different when you're already there. Things suddenly change. I know what will make me stay and what will make me go away. Next week, I will know.

On another note, people have been calling me alcoholic. I have heard it A LOT of times. I don't think I'm dependent on it... it's just that there have been a lot of opportunities for me to decrease the blood in my alcohol system.

It's fourth year anyway... I might as well have fun before med. school. Ohyeh!

i ain't happy

if you ain't happy with something, why bother doing it
it's a waste of effort and time
the past two days, i dragged my feet to rehearsals
i don't think it's healthy

in fact, this will entail less time with bio friends
and i don't think i'm ready for that
and yes, i didn't go to callbacks
and still they decided to get me
and this made me realize that there are people
who deserve it more
who have the passion to do it
i'm taking it for granted
i'm not happy
oh well

Quitters never win? I don't think I can quit something I never joined... technically.

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Warning: Cigarette Smoking is Dangerous To Your Health

Once you start it...

you get addicted
it consumes you
you consume it
you meet friends
you lose friends
it changes you
but you do not realize it
every puff is a breath of fresh air
every puff is a new experience

I'm stopping...

you experience withdrawal symptoms
you avoid people who also smoke
the urge to do it again gets to you
when you see others do it
total avoidance is the key

as much as i love it, i have to quit it. oh theatre.